Somewhat Offbeat

capacityforyou @ 2006-12-12T01:11:00

2006-12-12T05:11:28Z

Manners turn me onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

An Undeniably ROUGH around the edges draft of what will (eventually) become a splendid SERIAL PAPER

2006-11-30T06:51:26Z

To the untrained eye the North Mariana Islands appear to be a south pacific paradise. In many ways, they are. Among other perks, the islands boast white sand beaches, lavish coastal regions and tropical weather. The other perks, as seen by the American garment industry, might be the American soil and complete lack of United States labor, minimum wage and immigration laws.

I LOVE ECONOMICS!

To You TWO!!!

2006-11-28T22:07:10Z

Dear Cookie Cooking Ladies,
Please don't think your gift was unappreciated.
It's just in the video game I was getting dominated.
So here is my poem of thanks,
I like the cookies, but I sure would've liked spanks... too.
Right now you're mocking me,
SO SHUT UP! please.
Both you blonde bombshells made my day.
I was just too scared to say.
I'm a manly man and I don't like emotions.
So to heal your hurt feelings this is my potion
Accept it or reject it,
I know you will like it.
I eat your cookies with great pride.
Cuz the joy of having 2 great friends I cannot hide.
Please don't hate me
I am sorry.

capacityforyou @ 2006-10-20T02:21:00

2006-10-20T06:24:56Z

So, I am acknowledging the breadth between my entries. I completely forgot about LJ for almost the past year.
Right now I am sitting at the front desk of Upton Hastings waiting for the drunks that aren't coming so that I can check their bags. I've been sitting here since 11 and because of the unfortunate seating situation, my ass feels like it is about to fall off.
How is everyone?

i took john to school today

2006-04-06T12:27:56Z

tight pinstripe pants, collared shirts and pretty ties are the best thing in the world at 6:30 in the morning.

the problem:

2006-03-26T23:11:04Z

College.

I got into:
Friends World
Long Island University's Honors Program
Wells
St. Joe's

I didn't get into McGill - the letter cited that I only took three years of math and all undergrads there have to have four.

St. Joe's is giving me a $40k scholarship. I might end up going there just because of the money. And convenience. Friends World is almost officially too expensive, even with Masonic Scholarships it'd be like 25k+ a year. And I wouldn't be able to work. I haven't gotten FA letters from Wells or Liu yet.

I haven't seen non-Hannaford people in three days. Thirty hours of work since Friday. All going to my banged up car. Everyday after school (except Tuesday) I'm work 4-9 hour shifts. I love not being 18 and not dealing with child labor laws. I'll have 40+hours this week.

thank goodness there's John

2006-03-14T04:22:53Z

everything that i ever want is too much money, and i'm finally becoming logical enough to realize it.

a good thing that happened today: i'm going to be a bridesmaid. i have a dress fitting tomorrow.

capacityforyou @ 2006-03-08T13:54:00

2006-03-08T18:58:46Z

dan ratcliffe is moving to colorado. we just spent four hours walking around and talking. we listened to summer teeth by wilco. he gave me a very, very long hug. and tight.

hey look

2006-02-26T21:19:30Z

This is what I do all the time.

Katie is a permanent fixture in our lives.

Johnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

morning.

2006-02-21T15:06:42Z

Dude, I got some snappy new Wellingtons. They're blue. John's mom got a green pair.

I also got a completely new wardrobe via Patagonia. They had a 50% off sale. Off of everything. Already low prices. (hannaford slogan?) I freaked out.

Kate's leaving today. I'm seeing MMW on Saturday. Hopefully. If we don't play Dread Pirate.

How is everyone?

My first acceptance letter.

2006-02-16T19:36:00Z

_{It is my distinct pleasure to inform you that you have been accepted for admission to Wells College.}

_{I spent the morning at Saint Joseph's. I had a tour and an interview. It's a nice campus, but I wasn't really into it. My parents absolutely loved St. Joe's, and thought that we could make the money work and I said everything depended on if I got into Wells. The letter from Wells was in the mailbox when I got home.}

I feel like sometimes I go way too far for you.

2006-02-11T16:52:58Z

I've been listening to coldplay lately. Or at least now.

I want to go to Portland and Cambridge. I miss the morning when someone picked me up at 8 and we climbed Mt. Pisgah. I love that it's spelled "g-a-h." Shhh.
Where'd my passion for South America go? I want to go back to that. I want to live in Costa Rica next year. I need to be far away.
my slates delivery is here ~

so, spitting cowboys...

2006-01-25T03:00:49Z

Just got home from John's. I love how he lives five miles away and our parents expect that we'll be together every night.

I miss this:

I also miss this:

(- bug bite on cheek and chapped lips - and pasty-ness) I'm talking mostly about the car, and those days of postAPness and low stress summer. With Nora in the backseat being witty. And Liam running by the car with the phone.

going along with that:

First class at UMA today. It's like a more intensive HUSH. Yeah. Yeah. First class --> 170 pages of reading. And like 30 handouts. And one class until our first exam. The first exam alone is 30% of my grade. Holy shit.

I know I haven't updated in a long time, and I know pictures don't count, but I can't avoid lj forever. I had to do something.

In conclusion:

yesss

2005-12-29T20:51:50Z

i hope everyone's vacation is going well. Christmas was a little strange. It didn't really feel right, but it was nice to have everyone home.

i just got a big sloppy wet kiss on the cheek. Johnny's playing with some change on the table, looking listless and bored. Now he's staring at the people in the pool directly across from us. His right foot is shaking and he's got a huge hole in his jeans. now he's (still bored) with his right hand massaging my shoulder.

i've been at sugarloaf since monday? i think. with john. he has a condo. we're going home either sunday or monday. liam is coming here tomorrow. we've been mostly hanging out with cam mckee and other skiiers. skiiing is great, but i'm sooo bad. fill me in on everything that's been going on, i feel disconnected. fran, esp you. yeah, you know. and pad, where've you been.

capacityforyou @ 2005-12-24T19:14:00

2005-12-25T00:15:05Z

I cannot stand much longer
Cause I'm falling down
Thought I'd be much stronger
With you not around
Inside my head my eyes seem fixed on you
What am I supposed to do

capacityforyou @ 2005-12-19T21:49:00

2005-12-20T02:57:35Z

[ ] I am shorter than 5'5.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my (natural)hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
[x] I am blonde.
[x] I have blue or green eyes.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] I've been physically hurt by one of my parents.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[xxxxxx] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've been to the hospital for over a month.
[x] I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[xxxx] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[x] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[xxxxxxx] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I own skanky underwear.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest EXCEPT the having children thing.

pictchas

2005-12-17T01:19:00Z

Ain't she a beaut?

I heard that this is a really bad picture.

on the $11,000 art.

this is so coolllll

looove it

Josh Shain......

Frrrannnnnces

That's Fran up there. Emily, too.

Me, in the circle.

Look at all the learning!! And Alex Wilson's armhair!!

Me, in acadec, and half of my laptop

how nice.

2005-12-14T20:40:38Z

there are more to come. 49 more, to be exact.

capacityforyou @ 2005-12-11T19:49:00

2005-12-12T00:51:17Z

I feel good.
It's never been quite like this before.

sleepy

2005-12-06T04:13:47Z

AD was pretty great. Fran agrees. Right?

Julie Wei and I rocked today. Those questions, whooa, whooa. Mark Kostin told me USM shouldn't worry me. He went to McGill for undergrad.

I had coffee at B&N with Dan and Chris Miller. Right. That was, not so hot.
I played lacrosse for a really long time at John's. His little brother rocks. Kind of. John is the man, he's hilarious. He's a total Catholic boy. Talks about the Pope all the time and stuff. Wears like four crosses and talks about how hallowell is "weird." I don't think that he likes gay people.

He's seriously hilarious though.

Undo my back zip

2005-12-05T04:39:41Z

"I feel sexed up...."

She smiles and it's a rainbow.

I have red nail polish on my super short nails. Katie Ayer, Malindi, and I all did it the night we made 60 crepes (no joke, 60). It's chipping and my hands need lotion because working at H-ford makes them super dry. (Zac, how's that going, by the way? can you relate to my dryness?) I woke up at 10 this morning and watched Emma. Which was good, but I don't think that I was in the right mood for it. I still haven't finished A Very Long Engagement. Andrew and Sarah were here last night, Andrew and I got in a fight. We're so compatible. Padric comforted me. Meg, I do miss you, I just couldn't handle so I had to stay away for a while. I have a kanji quiz tomorrow. Before school. It's easy to be easy and free when it doesn't mean anything. You've done me no favor to call and be nice. What do I want for Christmas? I'm supposed to tell Josh and Andrew and I really don't know. Ideas? They said no to the gift certificate idea. Do I need anything? I want these Hugo Boss glasses, but they said no to that also. You just smiled like a bank teller, blankly telling me, "have a nice life." I'm not very good at ice skating anymore and I wish that I could ski. I would rather ski than snowboard. Left handed people are better, but there are exceptions. There's this guy named Mark West, and sometimes he creeps me out, but we have astonishingly similar taste in music. Everyday she wears the same thing, I think she smoke pot. I love long conversations. The word love shouldn't be used lightly, I feel that I use it way too much, but I've been trying to cut back. I told Liam that I would call him when I got out of work, but I forgot. I've been forgetting/neglecting to call people a lot lately, sorry if you're a victim. I have to call Liam. Which means I won't go to bed for hooours. I'm so exhausted. I ate so many poptarts today, it's crazy. Those damn cinnamon and brown sugar ones have me at the knees. It's weird. That John person has never heard of Woody Allen. He just told me that. Meg would have a fit. Caleb, make sure you think about that link I sent you, I'll go fifty/fifty on it. Tell me what movies all of you want to see so that I can order them and we'll have a movie night. Let's have a huge movie night with everyone there. Who wants to come? Everyone. Like the Japanese party, except no QAF. (PG- i need the next season, i'll bring in the other) And when should it be? Padric wrote a letter to the editor, it's really good. It sucks me in when you're aloof, it sucks me in, it sucks it works. I think that it's funny when you call someone a 'goat weeny.' This will tear you up. You're all dressed up like the cure. Unearned unhappiness. I bought two bottles of Evian today. Yesssssssssss. I applied to a college. I haven't worked on an application all weekend, i've been too busy socializing. Ridiculous.

I love to drive. Not the fact that I can, but driving in general.

I want to have that rainbow smile. Dan says that I have sunshine eyes. or said, back in the day. Meaning a couple weeks ago. Or something. But, rainbow smile. It happens all the time, it's no big deal.

I'm watching Grey's Anatomy, which I've really been getting into lately. Teka's sleeping on the recliner next to me, and if it wasn't for the mass amount of ticks that i suspect are lodged into her skin i'd pet her. You're not here to make friends, you're here to make better surgeons.

Dan Ratcliffe pulled out in front of me today which prompted a text message then a call then me being unblocked and us talking and it was, interesting. He even tried to get me to come to his show. Yeah, that's right, how weird.
I went to Lucky G's today, it's gone downhill. Megan and Mal were there right after too, I hear. Too bad, we could've had a party.

Josh Barret - let's hang out. with Nora.

The sea is calm to-night.
The tide is full, the moon lies fair
Upon the straits; -on the French coast the light
Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand,
Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay.
Come to the window, sweet is the night air!
Only, from the long line of spray
Where the sea meets the moon-blanch'd land,
Listen! you hear the grating roar
Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
At their return, up the high strand,
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in.

Sophocles long ago
Heard it on the Aegean, and it brought
Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow
Of human misery; we
Find also in the sound a thought,
Hearing it by this distant northern sea.

The Sea of Faith
Was once, too, at the full, and round earth's shore
Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furl'd.
But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
Retreating, to the breath
Of the night-wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world.

Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,

Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.

-Matthew Arnold

Mr. O'Mahoney gave me a copy of that the day that I said everyone from Whitefield is a farmer.

p.s. i got a new screen name. it's albeitglorious.

"you're one of the sexiest girls I know"

2005-12-02T03:33:52Z

it's been a good day.

Ladies and Gentlemen Open UP

2005-12-01T03:23:03Z

That bomb threat was pretty bunk. And by bunk I mean not cool, in case you were wondering. That is a pretty lame word, I'll try not to use it again. Except how Fran and I didn't get in trouble for leaving the gym and meeting Michaela. GOOOOAL.
I love how I had privs during first period but I was there to talk to PJ. And then right as I'm about to leave I have to go to the gym...

The Harlem Rockets were like a tv show. I'm pretty glad that I went. The 7' one called me "m'lady" in the hall today. MW called me that yesterday. Weeeird. Maybe they have a secret connection and were trying to freak me out.

A. Hennings and I caught up tonight. He's the one that was wearing a dress in an older entry.. yeah.. well he's better now. Because he wasn't too good. He's dating someone, I was excited.
I'm exchanging emails with a boy that I'm trying to corrupt (i met him at Hannaford). When he's bags for me (@H) I make him do a different dance for each customer. He's super cool and he sent me an email saying that we could be friends. There was more of a progression, but(t) that was the general outcome.

AREN'T YOU EXCITED????

capacityforyou @ 2005-11-29T20:59:00

2005-11-30T02:26:58Z

Malindi and Katie came over tonight. We made crepes. Katie found all of her cds from 5th grade. We listened to them, sang, and danced on the way to our destination. Malindi hasn't really changed. They make me comfortable. They're some of the only people that don't require me to keep my guard up. We want to have a barn party. We called Sam Boynton. Sam and I decided that we're going to get together with Nate Haskell and play dress up like the old days. He's still got the trunk.
Malindi's conscientious. She's smart. She's truthful and genuinely fun to be with. We've been friends since we were ten. She taught me how to waterski and took me to Caratunk for the first time. Katie's just cool. She draws people in. We write each other notes at work - using thermal tape and hand sanitizer only.

I can't stand when people disregard your findings, then when they find the same themselves act like it's a new phenomenon.

I painted my nails. I bought a jacket. I can't keep the heater on in my car (if i have the jacket on) because I start to melt.

We made 60 crepes tonight...........

I was supposed to just be checking my email but I'm still sitting here, it's been an hour. Josh Shain is something else.

I'm watching this alt. med. thing on mpbn. Who cares if it's a placebo if you're feeling better? I'd rather put herbs and massage into my body then unknown chemicals. I was on steroids for four months and they did nothing at all (and Kelly called me scabface), but reflexology changed everything (no scabface). Let people take what they wannnt.

capacityforyou @ 2005-11-27T13:19:00

2005-11-27T18:21:17Z

Family, Thanksgiving, all that. It was great, really really great. Perfect, even.